11/20/12
There are times in everyone’s life when everthing seems to stop. It’s a dreaded time that we all hope is temporary, but some times it can seem permanent. My recent problems are quite petty compared to the problems of billions of other people. I often wonder when misfortunes happen to me if I am under some kind of cosmic cloud. This is a time when communications are restricted or cut off. An astrological term for this is when Mercury is in retrograde.
I am a believer in Astrology, just as I believe in many of the divining arts, however over the many years I have found divination to be a curse more than a blessing. In many cases divination by Astrology or Tarot will forecast misfortune. Some believe this is an aid in offsetting the misfortune by knowing in advance what may happen, however I’ve found that often these predictions of misfortune can become selffulfilling prophecies. Also the predictions of good fortune can often become disappointments. Prior to my friend and Astrologer passing away several years ago, I would call him when I wanted to know what was happening or what was about to happen. He would say that I should watch out for certain things, or that it was a good time planetarily to do certain things. It often served as a comfort to me knowing if I was about to have a good run of luck or if I wasn’t. I found that I became somewhat dependent on his predictions and wondered if I hadn’t known about their possibility of happening if they would have happened anyway, or not at all.
My knowledge of Astrology was and is limited to what my friend taught me. I was taught the Tarot by a Tarot reader and psychic and realized that I had some ability at interpreting the future, however I soon became dependent upon the Tarot whenever I had a question about my future. It is difficult for a Tarot reader or Astrologer or any diviner to not become dependent on his art or science, to the extent that he or she cannot make a move into the future or a major decision without first consulting the cards or the stars. I would be wrong to say I have lost faith in divination, but I have lost faith in my ability to predict the future. I have become more of believer in trusting the unknown. That may sound strange to some,but I would rather put my faith in my promise and manifestation of my goals, instead of placing faith in some magical deck of cards or someone’s interpretation of the stars and planets.
As I ponder the reasons for my present struggle I am beginng to recognize the fatal and favorable patterns that appear. If I consider all the faults and potential problems based on current faults and problems I will often revise my plans simply on the premise that they might fail. It is simply a matter of my attitude and belief that things will get better and opportunities will present themselves. If I do not keep this belief while I am planning a goal I become riddled with doubt and fear of failure.
Ah, the great cosmic cloud of confusion hasn’t completely disappeared but my cosmic connection of hope and achievement are becoming clearer. I just received a much delayed phone call that has cleared a great obstacle for me. I guess Mercury is no longer in retrograde.
L.A. Steel
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