The Doorway to Everything
10/15/12
Somewhere in my awakened consciousness there is a place that is blurred and unrecognizable. A place in the mist of memory unknown and unexperienced. There is a place within my mind that refuses to reveal itself. It isn’t my subconscious, I spend my sleeping hours there and know it quite well. It is a place that all thought seems to go and end at a closed door. It is the end of all knowledge and wisdom. The end of all understanding both intellectually and spiritually. There is no great chain or lock on the door, it is a large closed door at the end of a hallway.
It may be fear or frustration or simply a confused state of consciousness that prevented me from entering the door, yet each time I attempted to open it, the door would suddenly vanish and transform into a wall. Even when I tried to become transparent or pray to the great power of the Universe, I could not open the door or pass through the wall.Once I felt a sense of hope and tried to enter, but nothing happened and I was forced to withdraw in frustration. Another time I spent many hours in the hallway wondering why I could not pass through the door. I wondered if there really was anything beyond the door and I had come to the end of all conscious and unconscious thought. I left my body and floated threw the universe where all stargates, all planets, all pathways were opened to me. Then I saw a great sun and travelled to it. It was brighter than anything I had ever seen. It was beyond all my imagination or spiritual comprehension. I felt embraced by its great light, but not blinded, or harmed or hindered in my approach to it. As I began to merge with its light I felt a oneness and completeness of mind and spirit. I never wanted to leave, I felt as if I had never left, and had always been there.
Without warning I immediately returned into my body, which I left in the hallway next to the wall. I became completely aware of everything around me, when suddenly the wall vanished and the door appeared and opened, and I saw nothing beyond it. It was not infinity or oblivion, or a void or darkness, it was simply nothing. Then I understood that I was everything.
L.A. Steel
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