SCREAMING

SCREAMING
7/7/08

I feel like I can’t scream anymore. Maybe that is a good thing, but I dont’ have the emotional energy to scream anymore. I’ve been screaming about everything I can ‘t stand for so long I can ‘t do it anymore. I can yell, or shout, but I can’t scream. I would like to scream. I would like to scream at the top of my lungs, but something is holding me back. The last time I screamed was in 2005, shortly after Katrina. I was watching G.W. Bush give a speech in New Orleans several weeks after Katrina. I never felt more anger and disgust for anyone in my life. I wrote an article that same night , and published it on this website. It was entitled “G.W Bush is a Lying Sack of Shit” It’s still in my archives. I got so angry at that incredible lying sack of shit, that I began to scream out of absolute disgust and frustration.

I’ve been wanting to scream on my radio show some night, but I’ve been afraid to blow out the sound board, or blow out someone’s ear drum if they were listening too close to their radio speaker. I think it would be very theraputic. I use to play Spanish Flaminco music when I got too angry on the radio show and was about to scream. I stopped doing that for the past year or so, because I haven’t been getting as angry as I use to. It’s all part of this problem I have with not being able to scream anymore. Maybe I’ll try it out this week. A one or two minute primal scream on radio. If I do it I’ll replay it on my internet show, Wednesday night. I think I’ll practice a few times today and tomorrow until I get it just right.

L.A. STEEL