KARMA

KARMA
4/3/08

Karma determines fate makes sense if we think of the outcome of our actions. I had an astrological reading back in December of 2007 by a renowned astrologer who specializes in Karmic astrological readings. She believes in reincarnation, and that everyone comes back to correct their past life Karma. Unfortunately I must of had a hell of a past life or two; because based on my reading I am in deep shit. The basis of this being, that I ” chose” to come back to earth to tackle a great task of Karmic correction. This explained a great deal to me as to why I may have had so many upheavals in my life , and where I am now. (writing this )

I recall the tone of the astrologer’s voice as she gave the reading. She was calm and serious and sounded like a doctor giving a patient bad news. I’ve heard a lot of bad news before, but never from an astrologer. I have to admit so far most things are going fairly well, but I like most people have bad stuff happen to me and I pick up the pieces and go on with life. I’ve been lucky so far and haven’t had a piano fall on my head , although I did go through a divorce once that felt like a piano fell on my head.

I mentioned this karmic astrological reading to my mother and to my great suprise she told me that the day I was born she had a dream about my being reluctantly reincarnated shortly before she woke up in labor . She said she saw me as an adult standing in a small group of people looking down on earth from a cloud. The other people in the group were trying to convince me to reincarnate, but I was refusing to go. She heard me say” I had been down there enough times and didn’t want to go back.” The group argued with me to return to earth, stating it was very important to many that I return, and live my new life. They convinced me to reincarnate and I jumped into a hole in the cloud. Right after I jumped into the cloud my mother woke up in labor. She also mentioned her labor was very short, though I was a month over due.

I don’t know if dreams mirror reality, but for some reason I’ve always had a reluctance accepting this life as my ultimate reality. I’ve always had some outer worldly connection continually influencing me, to continue my course and discover where it leads. The astrologer also said I was born with several very powerful spiritual guides to lead me on this life’s journey; because of the great difficulty I was to encounter. The one thing I questioned about this reading was the certainty the astrologer had about my consciously choosing an extremely difficult karmic existence to reincarnate into. If I had a real choice before I got here, as to how I would like to spend another lifetime, I have to wonder what the hell I was thinking of. As I look at my past, and reflect on my future I am confident I can overcome most obstacles. There are present problems I face and I’m certain there will be future difficult times in my life, but perhaps my guides have been working very hard for me so far, so I haven’t made any mortally wounding mistakes. I am still alive. Wether or not I will make a mortal mistake is a problem for the future, and one I can’t consider now.

As I reflect on my Karmic condition I am reluctant to consider my future too seriously. I want only to enjoy every moment I exist. To paraphrase a Stone’s song, I do not always get what I want, but most often I get what I need. What I deserve is something else. I always wonder if people deserve the bad or good things that happen to them. It may be true that past life karma has something to do with our present misfortunes. If it is true , there is little we can do to prevent it; except not create anymore bad Karma and focus on creating good Karma . The best we can hope and strive for in our present life is for the cosmic scale of Karma to always weigh in our favor.

L.A. STEEL